"speak your mind, even if your voice shakes"

Courage?erm...what's the big deal eh? well,here's the thing,courage isn't that "C'mon man!buck up! shoot for the girl!go,talk to her!" kinda courage..i mean of course that is,one of the forms of courage but what I'm talking about is the "C'mon girl,let go of him!stand up for yourself!move A-H-E-A-D."

To be fair,I've'nt had one of those 'everlasting relationships'..& I think it really isn't the time to brood about it.I'm a teenager.All of it is supposed to happen.

As opposed to what everyone thinks about the 'high-headed' me (yes,I take is a compliment :D ),I really am just a girl trying to find a place in this world..to see where  I fit in.

The whole damn story can be summed up in : A girl,a guy => Love & what not.Relationship.Break-up.

Yes,this is indeed one of those age-old stories.But This one's new for me.I'm not in my familiar territory this time.I've actually stood up for myself...something mom taught me a while back through her actions.

It's scary,actually.To let go of somebody who doesn't respect you & that too,to do it the first time around.Yes,I am totally into myself (or so i claim) yet holding the door open for the person who doesn't wanna be in your life-now that's my dose of courage! :D Something I've never done before.

You see,I've been the kinda girl who'd sit on the front porch waiting for those who've left to come back..The one who'd shed tears looking at what she's lost & who'd do every damn thing to get them back-Including Losing Her Self-Respect.

Not anymore,though.Trust me,I do feel like calling the person & asking him to come back & solve the issues..but NO. If a person REALLY wants to be a part of my life,let him work for it.Yes,If I can work my ass off for the person,He too has to prove that I mean something to him. & If he doesn't,then I won't be all "damn! where did I go wrong?" Instead,It'd be " Cuz the truth of the matter is replacing you is so easy!" 

You see,the way to hold on to yourself & your life is to constantly tell yourself "It's Okay.You can do it.I believe in you" We long for someone who'd tell this to us,tell us he believes in us,he loves us & he'd stand by us but let's face the fact-We are on our own. People are sick,well a lot of them! But giving up on life cuz of them?Doesn't that make them all the more important? They Shouldn't Be! That's the whole point!

Don't hate life cuz some asshole did his best to ruin it.Stand Up For Yourself.The urge to give up will always be there,the secret is to constantly remind yourself that,as Oprah says,  The "only decisions worth taking are the ones that coincide with your self-esteem,self-respect & self-image"

So This is me...

Letting go of the familiar...

Taking the fall

Risking It all..

For myself..Yes I can tell..

I'm scared to death But I won't sweat..
Cuz it's me after all,

who's worth my fall...